What’s up with my handle, you ask?
Confession time: I’m a former fat person.
“Fat” in the sense that I weighed a lot more than I do now. In the sense that I was overweight and unhappy and had a generally miserable outlook on life. I’m not interested in body-shaming anyone, or trying to tell you what size you should be. I wasn’t healthy, and that’s that. A couple of years ago I found myself doing the Whole30 program and transitioning into the Paleo lifestyle, and I’ve never looked back. Though I’ve had my ups and downs with eating healthy, I generally have gained so much from the experience and learned a lot about myself and my relationship with food.
I originally started this blog as a way to talk about my Whole30/Paleo lifestyle, and I did stay true to that for the most part. But a theme started to emerge right before I dropped off the radar for a few years.
Lately my life has not been about eating well or Whole30s or even feeling good about myself. It’s been crazy and chaotic and trying to figure out the hell that is the mid-twenties when you’re single and still figuring out what you want to be when you grow up. These are things that I deal with every day.
So, in that vein:
- I don’t talk about food as well as I should. I once thought I had “cured” my body image problems by having a really good few years with eating well and being slimmer than I had ever been. Boy oh boy was I wrong. Expect a lot of a feelings about food.
- I’m a full-time barista and a full-time student. Life has been a bitch lately in the career department and figuring out what I want to do is HARD, people. I’m still bumping along as I pursue a degree in nursing, despite being mostly sure this is what I actually want to do. It hasn’t gone at all like I’ve planned it (silly me) but I’m not giving up.
- I’ve recently been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. I’m not even sure how to begin to encapsulate all the feelings that spin around in my chest as I simply type those words out. The last several months of my life have been insanely difficult as I have dealt with crippling anxiety and panic attacks, and learning to live with all aspects of this part of my life.
- I’m awkward as hell. Like, seriously.
Expect these 4 things to be recurring themes.
Life is crazy and hard, but here’s to being open and honest and hoping to maybe help someone else out by sharing my experiences. ❤